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ok so im having suicidal thoughts again my story in my head helps drive them away becausen it makes meh happy but.... what i want to know is would any of you miss me i mean everyone at school hates me exept the dgroup im in and i mean they bring up muy spirits some but.... i just think it be better if i died i meanno one at the school would care or even notice.... i mean all i am is a toy to them a way to make themselves seem more important, dominan t and stuff and i never talk about it or write it down... son tuff bottles up and chance just wants to seem more tough...... and then alot of people like shane, and others from my elementary school would be happy unless they reallly cared about me bu i...i just want to die its all stuck in my head and i.... i really want to die ..... peopled think im unatractive and even when i try and look beautiful or anything or werar my hair norma;l they always find something......
i don't know if i willl maby if i watchedc some porn it might help but still i.... wish theyed alll just stop i tont fioght back i dont nmake fun of them... why me does everyone there just want a verbal punching bag?
ima stop there just tell me if you care not like it matters mirures my only true friend i have and we are online friends at that.
i don't know if i willl maby if i watchedc some porn it might help but still i.... wish theyed alll just stop i tont fioght back i dont nmake fun of them... why me does everyone there just want a verbal punching bag?
ima stop there just tell me if you care not like it matters mirures my only true friend i have and we are online friends at that.
i tried to run away a week or two ago...
not kidding i did... they took away all my friends online and jynxxiez... so i wont be on much any mor... went a whole month almost not being on... i miss you all.... but i know jynxx nor anyof my friends online want me to hurt myself so i never shall.. and jynxxes trick works well i miss you all g2g byebye...
gomen for not responding, alot
i know im usually a fast responder... but im atthe moment in a very bad part of being manic for me.. so yeah and almost all this month ive been in a depressed mode but right now im very quiet and i rarly speak.. and welel im disociating alot... so i really dont think today is my day.. so today i may not even respond much.. ill trey and respond to you atleastonce today ... but itll bedificult...
and i think i caught a cold or something cause i feel like ima puke .. have sinceiwoke upat 9 aclock this morning.. so... yeah..... i dont really think ill even be able to talk to!Diadrin (https://www.deviantart.com/diadrin) later rtonight on the phone if hios get together doesnt l
theres a big thunder storm.. and im fuckinscared..
ok so its liek 40 a mile hour winds! and aparently a brach just fell on a neighbors tree... im really scared... i hate thunder storms but i dont want to get offline cause then i lose a source of comfort.. im just afraid something bad'll happen..
ok so i got ALOT of news... read if you want......
ok so.. im in a relqasionship its onlinebut.. jynxx is nice and sweet.. jynxx is on DA !Diadrin (https://www.deviantart.com/diadrin) so yeah i man theres an age diference buti like older guys ther're more mature..; but i love him..
but i still love jason.. im trying to get in contact with him... but.. meh... he wont contact me or cant..
and im polyamorous, so i can love mutiple people at a time.. so meh..
and swimming class started..
and my rooms almost done.
and they still insistim going outwith devan.
i made a gaia account--- lovablevampiregirl
my space bar is acting up.. so my spacing is fuckin craqp.
and alot more but my foots falling asleep though..
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Okay, not to feel harsh or anything, but. . .
WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!?!?!?!?!
You know what, I'm sick of all this suicidal junk from everyone around me!
Suicide is NOT the answer to everything! It's easy to die, and a whole lot harder to live, but it's also so much worth while. Life consists of horrid things, but because of those, you know what things are truely GOOD.
And don't worry about being attractive! You're still in grade school! Everyone's still immature, developing, and confused! >.< I know it doesn't seem that way, but believe me! And when you get to middle school, the girls will just be trying to show off their little bit of clevage to make it seem that their breasts are larger than they are, and the boys are immature drooling wolves! >.< Girls mature faster than boys, and they are a lot more catty too!
Nothing is worth dying over! It's just running away!
You talk to me if you feel this way again! (Well, I guess you don't have to, but I'm sure fired up! >.<)
WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!?!?!?!?!
You know what, I'm sick of all this suicidal junk from everyone around me!
Suicide is NOT the answer to everything! It's easy to die, and a whole lot harder to live, but it's also so much worth while. Life consists of horrid things, but because of those, you know what things are truely GOOD.
And don't worry about being attractive! You're still in grade school! Everyone's still immature, developing, and confused! >.< I know it doesn't seem that way, but believe me! And when you get to middle school, the girls will just be trying to show off their little bit of clevage to make it seem that their breasts are larger than they are, and the boys are immature drooling wolves! >.< Girls mature faster than boys, and they are a lot more catty too!
Nothing is worth dying over! It's just running away!
You talk to me if you feel this way again! (Well, I guess you don't have to, but I'm sure fired up! >.<)